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I agree\n                                       to toggle pride. I forget—a problem of age. I regret\n                                                   my age, a grim milestone. Also the photo I couldn’t\n                                                                   forget, the one with the boa. I regret the horse.\n                                                                                  It was so huge and fierce with such long \n                                                                                                      yellow teeth, I felt tiny and timid.\n                                                            I regret the yacht, the horse, the boa. My \n                                unwilling boots groan as I set them on the path.\n                At my age, I thought. Armed with boots, boa, age, I set out on the path.\nRegret is a treat, the luxury of thinking there are\n                            other possibilities. Regret is a yacht, a luminous boat\n                                          of pride, the assumption one could have done better.\n                                                     Regret is a photo left in the bottom drawer of the tallboy \n                                                                 beneath the old duvets, moth eaten\n                                                                             and musty, next to the bow tie that made him\n                                                                                        look the cat’s whiskers. Regret is a groan\n                                                                                                       of recognition—failed\n                                                                                                                                                        again.\n                                                                                                             Regret is the uncertain terrain\n                                                                                of the fens, mosquito infested, full of the\n                                  sulphurous smell of decomposed sphagnum. Regret is toggling\n                       what was with what is and trying to weasel out\n            of what you’ve become.\nRegret is a feather boa floating around your neck (the bird, the bird…. that dawn,\n                            the emu, the bird that can’t fly, flying long-legged across the red-lit\n                                         red sands of the Nullabor Desert.) Regret is age, an unfortunate\n                                                                 fact when it’s too late to rewrite what’s been written.\n                                                                                       Regret is rue, the woody yellow-flowered\n                            ruta graveolens of evil smell and bitter taste,\n                perennial, invasive, but beneficial\n                                           for headaches, arthritis, fevers\n                                                                                   of heart. Rue—herb-of-grace.\n                                                                                                                Unsafe in large doses."],"Note":["[{\"note\":\"Carlos A. Pittella\",\"type\":\"Cataloguer\"}]"],"Related_works":["[{\"url\":\"https://headlightanthology.ca/archive/n24/unsafe-in-large-doses/\",\"citation\":\"Lovell, Susi. Unsafe in Large Doses. Headlight Anthology, no. 24, 2023, pp. 34–35.\"}]"],"_version_":1853670549180383232,"timestamp":"2026-01-07T14:59:53.772Z","score":6.891803}]